Reading this felt like I was reading seasons throughout my life! And, it has also made me wonder if I too have ADHD? I do have a head injury which left me with a quarter of an inch hole in my brain so naturally I would battle with certain brain related problems but how you describe ADHD related problems makes me wonder about myself. Thank you for sharing. And so happy I stumbled across this article! Iām definitely subscribing!
The ten-dollar tea wasnāt even about the tea, was it. Itās that quiet internal panic of doing maths in your head and realising the margin is thinner than you thought. I was late diagnosed too and for years I genuinely believed I was just chaotic with money. Turns out I just canāt conceptualise it properly half the time.
The ADHD tax isnāt just impulse buys. Itās forgotten subscriptions, rebuying things you already own, optimism that next month will magically stabilise everything. Itās creativity spilling into places it shouldnāt.
And the inheritance pieceā¦ thatās a different kind of grief. Security you thought existed justā¦ dissolving.
Thank you for writing this the way you did. Itās rare to see someone say it plainly instead of turning it into a productivity lesson.
Thanks for reading, and Iām glad you were able to relate to pieces of this post. And do sure I have no productivity lesson here, itās all about the sharing (shame cannot exist when we shine the light on it). š”š
Budget constraints have nothing on the ārichāness of your content. So helpful and relatable! If you can do this on two green teas, I canāt wait to see what else is next. šŖš±
Oh, Rachel, what a beautiful post. Thank you for writing it. Ever since I quit corporate, I have been in a similar boat. I received a decent equity payout when I left and have dipped into it over the years for this and that. Now it's gone. I am still doing accounting on my own but making 3x less. And I'm single now I don't have the luxury of shared expenses. And like you, the hopes of having yoga and my writing pay the bills seem to be so far out of reach. I am actually thinking about driving for Uber. They have a new women only thing so you don't have to pick up men if you choose not to. Anyway - sending you lots of love. Hell, I'm a CPA, and I still can't get my money right!! š¤£
Hi Crystal, thanks so much for reading. This was a hard one to process, but has been weighing heavily and needed to come out. Iām glad there are folks here like yourself who can relate to the struggles. š
I tried to just like your post but it brought me here, "Comments" and I couldn't turn away. Been there done that, robbing peter to pay paul but peter still has to get paid too. I spiraled. There was a forest fire, ashes fell on the property, but nothing burned, exactly. The insurance company pulled out and who was left understood the score, so the rates went way up. THEY need to make a profit so they can pay all the other guys who do have claims. And so it goes, pay the card, use the card. but keep the horses and the chickens (I loved the eggs). I can't change the present I don't like, with the same mind that created the present this time. I'm going to change my mind,....soon. Thank you for this post but next time don't make me come here. I feel like I'm missing something from my store. I forget the name. Seriously, thank you!
Reading this felt like I was reading seasons throughout my life! And, it has also made me wonder if I too have ADHD? I do have a head injury which left me with a quarter of an inch hole in my brain so naturally I would battle with certain brain related problems but how you describe ADHD related problems makes me wonder about myself. Thank you for sharing. And so happy I stumbled across this article! Iām definitely subscribing!
Hi Brain Dump - love the title of your Substack, by the way! I'm glad this resonated for you. I will check out your writings, as well. :)
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This felt uncomfortably familiar.
The ten-dollar tea wasnāt even about the tea, was it. Itās that quiet internal panic of doing maths in your head and realising the margin is thinner than you thought. I was late diagnosed too and for years I genuinely believed I was just chaotic with money. Turns out I just canāt conceptualise it properly half the time.
The ADHD tax isnāt just impulse buys. Itās forgotten subscriptions, rebuying things you already own, optimism that next month will magically stabilise everything. Itās creativity spilling into places it shouldnāt.
And the inheritance pieceā¦ thatās a different kind of grief. Security you thought existed justā¦ dissolving.
Thank you for writing this the way you did. Itās rare to see someone say it plainly instead of turning it into a productivity lesson.
Thanks for reading, and Iām glad you were able to relate to pieces of this post. And do sure I have no productivity lesson here, itās all about the sharing (shame cannot exist when we shine the light on it). š”š
Budget constraints have nothing on the ārichāness of your content. So helpful and relatable! If you can do this on two green teas, I canāt wait to see what else is next. šŖš±
Hello, so happy to connect with you š¤ I just subscribed to your content, and I hope you feel like subscribing to mine too š xx
Oh, Rachel, what a beautiful post. Thank you for writing it. Ever since I quit corporate, I have been in a similar boat. I received a decent equity payout when I left and have dipped into it over the years for this and that. Now it's gone. I am still doing accounting on my own but making 3x less. And I'm single now I don't have the luxury of shared expenses. And like you, the hopes of having yoga and my writing pay the bills seem to be so far out of reach. I am actually thinking about driving for Uber. They have a new women only thing so you don't have to pick up men if you choose not to. Anyway - sending you lots of love. Hell, I'm a CPA, and I still can't get my money right!! š¤£
Hi Crystal, thanks so much for reading. This was a hard one to process, but has been weighing heavily and needed to come out. Iām glad there are folks here like yourself who can relate to the struggles. š
That's why we write isn't it? To feel a little less alone? š
Absolutely!
I tried to just like your post but it brought me here, "Comments" and I couldn't turn away. Been there done that, robbing peter to pay paul but peter still has to get paid too. I spiraled. There was a forest fire, ashes fell on the property, but nothing burned, exactly. The insurance company pulled out and who was left understood the score, so the rates went way up. THEY need to make a profit so they can pay all the other guys who do have claims. And so it goes, pay the card, use the card. but keep the horses and the chickens (I loved the eggs). I can't change the present I don't like, with the same mind that created the present this time. I'm going to change my mind,....soon. Thank you for this post but next time don't make me come here. I feel like I'm missing something from my store. I forget the name. Seriously, thank you!